Maria,
Did you tell Willem about my mental illness? Willem may end up in trouble because of me, especially if Willem cooperates with Germans and other Westerners. I am doing all I can to bring to justice Germans, Americans, Australians, etc. You described very superficial opinion of Willem about Ukrainian culture, Russian culture, Indonesian culture, etc. I am trying to support you the best I can but it is very hard for me because I am very sick. You change your mind many times: sometimes you say that you do not want relationship with me any more, than you say that you want me, I do not know if I can trust you. Your parents do not want me just show up in your home town but to make you happy. I am very sick. I cannot be a husband. Family s not for business but you and I try to make our family relationships like a business, trying to cooperate with Willem. This is nepotism and corruption. Willem could be much better off if he would advertise this position though the Internet, not just offering this position only to me. I do not know enough about the company of Willem, I cannot work for someone I do not know. It is difficult for me to keep secrets; I must try to make everything pubic. It is very difficult for the family to exist if a wife works for the USA and a husband is a terrorist. I do not want to be a burden for you. I cannot start processing the documents to go to Indonesia until all my questions are answered. If you decide to process documents for me, you can use my name in my expired international passport. Try not to call me in the morning and in the afternoon, please.
Please suggest anything about the draft of my E-mail to Willem where I say that I mentally ill and include references to my main web – pages.
Willem is too busy to read too much, thus description of my strengths and weaknesses may be too much for him to read. I am very busy fixing the legal issues with the Internet now, trying to talk by skype with my sister. Let us contact Willem another time in the end of February 2010. You and I have not experienced real hardships (losing close family members, very serious illness, extreme poverty, etc.) If we experience any of those hardships our behavior will probably be very bad, especially my behavior. Thus, let us not try to do too much, let us not expect too much from each other, let us not put each other under too much stress (talking to you by telephone and by skype is a lot of stress for me).